As a habit I skip YogaX. Before today I'd only even watched 20 min of the dvd. Today I manned up. The vinyasas kicked my @$$ like usual, but I hung in there. I didn't do all of them and that whole "Kick your leg through" thing.. Well, that's just not gonna happen. I'm sure my form wasn't great, I took a couple breaks and got back to it.
What I didn't know is that the vinyasas was only 1/2 of the workout. The second half is balance poses! OMG So much fun. Seriously. I was better at them than I thought I would be. I'm sure anyone who has ever really done yoga would laugh (or cry) at my form, but I was so proud of myself. I did this
For real. I can't even tell you how much of a bad ass I thought I was in that moment.
I tried to do this.. but fell.. repeatedly. Some things are not for me.
The baby woke up and I still had 30 min left. I watched the rest so I could know what was coming up for next time. There was a bunch of stuff that was laughable.. Backbends? Yeah, I'll be skipping that, but I'm not dreading YogaX anymore.
I know, my days and my weeks don't line up. I started on a Friday. I wasn't meaning to start, but I did.. and before I knew it I had 10 days. I'd never made it that far and hell if I was going to start over on a Monday at that point! This is the beginning of week 4. This is a "rest" week (I use that term loosely) There are 2 YogaX workouts (ha!), 2 X Stretch workouts (I can honestly say I've never even watched this dvd.) 2 days of core synergistics (hun?) and 1 day of KenpoX (yay something I can do!)
So, I hit trusty ol' Youtube. This is what I found. HAHAHAHA.. Oh man.. it's gonna be a week. I can't do this stuff. Like, any of it, but that's ok.. Gonna do my best and forget the rest, I guess. I will not hit stop.. I will at least attempt every single exercise. If I can't do it then whatever. But I will watch the whole thing.
I already know YogaX kicks my butt.. The plan was to sub with cardioX, but I think I'm gonna try and hang in there. I'm just gonna skip the stuff I can't do. Before I got discouraged and quit.. not this week.
Alright.. Now I have a plan. YogaX is today. I'll spread out 2 mats and hope Lila stays on hers. (not likely)
It's Monday..Weigh in day 254.6. Gotta break this plateau. My low weight so far is 249.8. It's all emotional stuff bringing me down I'm sure, this month is going to be a good one for me; I can feel it! Lila wants to go for a walk in the stroller, so we're gonna trek to the trusty Kroger before yoga-ing.
But I made a promise to *try* YogaX again. It's been months, and I've never considered myself a "yoga" type girl. I'm far too high strung for all that relaxing and breathing.. BUT I tried it again. I did a whopping 20 min out of 90.
There's not really anything else to say after that lol.. Next week I'm hanging in there for another 5-10 min. I'll finish that dvd one day. Day 17... Done (ish)
Tomorrow starts week 3.. I'm cool with that, week 4 is what scares me.
Week 4 is
2 days of YogaX - uhhh
2 days Core synergistics - never even watched this one
2 days of x stretch - Umm where is that one again? As of right now I can't even find it.
And KenpoX-- That one I can handle.
I think I'll sub CardioX for the Yoga.. it's about 20 min yoga, so min kenpo and 20 min plyo.. At least I've got a plan now.
The baby's sleeping, but Reya jumped on board to do Yoga with me today.
Thursday = YogaX day. Um.. Yeah. Thursday is always the thing that derailed my week. Then, since I didn't work out Thursday, I would skip Friday. And since I hadn't worked out for 2 days I'd skip Saturday. As luck would have it Sunday is a rest day. Hot damn! Monday is the perfect opportunity to start again.
That's what I've done for 9.5 months? Of course that doesn't count the 2 months where I did nothing at all. Today will be day 14. I've never made it this far. I'm still terrified of YogaX. I did 20 min of it last summer, It was so hard I threw a fit and haven't tried it since. Now in my defense this is not yoga for beginners. This is hard core X style yoga. I'm remarkably flexible for someone that weighs what I do, but even then some things are IMPOSSIBLE. Either the belly or the boobs make certain positions way out of my reach. *sigh*
I'm not doing Yoga today. Instead I'll do KenpoX (it's kinda like Tae Bo, does anyone remember that?, meets hell) But it's fun, it's cardio and it's not yoga, so I'm in! This is where I promise to ATTEMPT Yoga on Sunday. Sunday is stretch/rest day, so if I fail miserably I haven't ruined my workout.
Did I say Kenpo is fun? I don't know what I was thinking. Actually I do, today was the first time in months that I've seen the end of that dvd. I've been quitting half way through. You know, baby, emails, whatever can give me a reason to stop. Today I got to the end. The elbow series is something I forgot was even part of this workout. After yesterday's shoulders and arms, it felt great, gave me a little extra stretch and reminded me that I worked HARD. So that part was satisfying. :)
I don't know; it was REALLY REALLY hard today. My mind isn't in the right place. The whole time I kept thinking how much I wanted to just stop. I didn't do any of the jumping jacks; I jumped rope or jogged in place instead. On a good day jacks are rough for me. Everything jiggles and it's really demoralizing. Same with the punches. I can see my arm fat flapping. Yuck. It's very distracting and there are a lot of punches in Kenpo. Like I said, my mind isn't right today. Nonetheless, I just pushed play. I am sitting here dripping with sweat and I'm glad I did it.
