Oh. My. God. It was awful.. I mean it was sooo bad. I considered suicide right there in the dressing room, but having both kids with me was a deterrent. Well, that and I couldn't find anything to slice my wrist with, really.. it was BAD. I tell Reya "I think I'm not ready for a swimsuit." She tells me "I think swimsuits aren't ready for your boobs!" LOL She's right. I try not to be bitchy the rest of the shopping trip and failed miserably. I was so mad. Mad at the 3 different tankini tops I tried on, mad at me for doing it and mad at her for even suggesting it!
I decided at some point last night that I was not going to let a bathing suit defeat me. Today I got back on the proverbial horse. This time I hit the mall and found a suit that was designed for big girls. I stopped in at my local Lane Bryant and tried a few things on. The first one was too big! (yay! but I really liked it.. I think it would work better for someone taller though.) but the second one was perfect.
I'm so not a fan of zebra stripes, and the website has this this same top in red/orange with an extra 20% off. That was a no brainer. I ordered it online.
Now I just have to find bottoms for it. *sigh*
Oh, I also tried on bras and confirmed that the ones I have are again too big. I should be happy about it, but I'm not. This bra situation is slowly ruining my life. Next month (my birthday month! yay) is their semi-annual sale so I'm gonna have to bite the bullet and buy new ones... again. I've gone down 3 band sizes in the past 6 months.